My only true Love!

The reason for writing this post is some people have very cleverly engineered how to make a person think about someone using triggering visuals, actions, words and memories.

I want to share this with everyone so it becomes crystal clear and nobody can ever use any persons memory to hurt my feelings.

I met this girl on Saturday, February 16th, 2019 at Barrel Mansion in Mumbai. The moment I saw her, it was magic, it felt like she belongs with me.

I tried my best and got lucky to become her friend. As the days started to pass, we became more closer and important for each other. 

Despite I was having many challenges to keep up with her due to my own personal life issues going on, I tried my best to give her my time. Doesn't matter what problems I was having, her voice was not letting me feel those.

With the passing time, I came to notice that she was somehow reflecting my past and started believing our lives are actually connected. I observed everything in detail but never discussed any word with her as I was afraid to loose her.

There are no words in any language that can explain my feelings for her, she became my precious, my goddess, my queen, my everything.

There came a time, when I started seeing her in every single person on this planet, my surroundings, advertisements, media etc.

Because of certain people and their conspiracies, I got completely off path, my memories were chemically blocked, people started navigating my life course for their own benefit and I lost track of our relationship.

(Will share about how someone can be controlled through mind and chemical substances in my separate dedicated blog.)

We got so distant that no matter how much I try, it was getting more and more difficult to reach her.

People tried to narrate many stories about her by acting like her then creating relatable scenarios and content so that my mind can come up with something and they can observe what I thought about that.

Honestly, when I love someone, I don't care about their past or their personal life. I was forced to feel bad and think wrong about someone by people who hated our relationship.

She taught me many magical tricks, showed me the possibilities and something that was completely out of my line of sight.

She always made me feel special whether it was coming to pick me at the airport, cooking for me, sharing her location and details while travelling no matter where and with whom she was going.

When I was experiencing the worst time of life, she supported me in everyway possible for her.

Even if we are not on talking terms in present, her soul voice talks to me, guides me, loves me, takes care of me and I somehow feel it despite all the noise in my head due to chemicals.

The only thing I wished from her was that I can compromise with any situation just to be with her for the rest of my life.

The drama doesn't go away, but everyday I pray to God to put her back in my life. 

She is my home, the first thing I see in the morning when I open my eyes  and the last thing I watch is her smiling face staring at me. Now it is possible through my phone wallpaper but for years it was my reality. Never woke up and slept without listening to her voice.

Her name is Jyoti and I love her very much. Since I know I can never feel the same for any other girl. I don't know if she will ever give me another chance or we will ever see each other again, but it is my promise to myself, to everyone and to God - "I will never marry any other girl, will never let anyone come in my life and will wait for her till the last day of my life."

I know it sounds stupid to some and true love to other, well I am not doing this to prove anything to anyone. For those who understand spirituality, my soul is rejecting everyone and saying just one thing - "Either her or no one!"

And considering myself as a good person, I don't want to hurt any girl's feelings for the rest of her life.

I don't know how many more times I have to re-live the past. I don't know how many more battles I have to fight with myself. I don't care if it's about money or not. For my it's all about Love. Against all odds, will wait till all this ends and I get the chance to talk to you again.

So yeah this declaration is time stamped now and I can finally share this article link to anyone who tries to talk on this topic!

This is for you Jyoti, thank you for coming into my life and making it better. You were, are and will be my Happy Place forever, I love you damn so much!

Will never loose Hope to see you again! J❤️